Desert Journey – Day 27

The mind is a funny thing. It’s interesting how it can jump from theme to theme in a matter of seconds. Although my body is slow to move and my words even slower to form in the morning, my brain seems to make up for my body’s sluggishness and resistance.

I am struggling to quiet my mind enough to enter the desert. It’s a bit of a challenge today. Jesus is always patient…

The sand is warm. I am sitting and cupping the sand in my hands and letting it sift through my fingers. Jesus invites me to walk, however I am feeling a bit stubborn and don’t want to go. Maybe I am procrastinating. My mind is wandering. Jesus invites again. This time I get up from the sand. I don’t want to be resistant.

Jesus, I don’t know what this resistance is about. Again, my mind opts for wandering. Avoidance is a handy tool we pull out from time to time. Resistance causes delay, I hear Jesus say. That rings true. I don’t want to delay what the Lord is doing, and yet I cannot see clearly how my resistance is playing out.

Maybe it’s an attitude. Yes, that’s it, an attitude of grumbling and complaining, because many times, ministry is just plain hard.

“And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord who has enabled me, because He counted me faithful, putting me into the ministry.” 1 Timothy 1:12

Conviction of the heart follows. There are times I forget what a privilege it is to serve. Jesus has asked for vulnerabilty and authenticity on this desert journey. I watch the cursor blink for a while. This one is hard to post.